Wednesday, October 8, 2008

fall in the air (aka "why are my kids so sick?")

the school year is here, we've finally transitioned into the "montessori way", and the leaves have turned and begun their descent groundward(i know i made that word up, it even looks funny). last season we had the occaisonal cold and a few bouts of tummy upset, but NOTHING like the crud that has crept around thus far. my kids have been "under the weather" literally since school started. i've hit a wall with this. my breaking point? yeah, it's here, it's now, and oooohwee is it gonna get UGLY.
i can come down fairly hard on myself in the parenting department. ever since i decided i wanted to stay home with my kids i have viewed it as my "job" and come at it whole-hog...surprised?
health, hygeine and happiness are my mission (impossible)on the homefront. these bouts of rundown, chronic crap are my nemesis. my kids don't eat crap, they get to bed early, get excercise and fresh air, and take multi-vitamins, fish oil, and vitamin d DAILY. where have i gone wrong? hopefully, new school, new kids, new germs is the culprit, not some horrible oversight in the mothering department.
this too shall pass.
if not, and this blog lapses longer than two weeks time, please come pull me out of the corner.
that said, we did get out briefly for some lover-ly maine fall leaf frolicking.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

sometimes i make stuff

posted some new things in the etsy shop. i've been sooooo bogged down lately. i feel as though i'm barely above water sometimes and the other time i'm just floundering around. i'm at a crossroads for sure, putting tons of new ideas and stuff out there into the world and getting really positive feedback has been wonderful and well, scary, to be frank. i'm getting close to where i want to be with owning my own business and creating and selling and all that and its giving me the heebie-jeebies. i feel like its now or never and the what-ifs are getting the better of me. with holiday craft shows, loads of custom orders, and new business props on the table i'm questioning everything. will i be gyping my kids? at what price will the fulfillment of my dream come? will i have to lean on my husband for extra time and favors, thereby cutting into his time for his business? will i fail my customers? will i get tired of producing and become uninspired once the goal is attained?

and i wonder why i can't sleep? any advice? c'mon folks, help me here.